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Why do all the celebrities die in their late 60s but all the evil politicians live until their 90s? [Nov. 26th, 2016|09:17 pm]
PolarisDiB
Fidel Castro died just soon enough to help some of my leftist friends remind me that all their rancor and pomp about how all of American society is for blame for every single drone kill ceases to be about human rights violations when the murderer of hundreds of thousands is against the Mainstream Empire.

--PolarisDiB
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I forgot to post this thought [Nov. 16th, 2016|02:17 am]
PolarisDiB
Meant it for the last post, but it stands alone.

Celebrities: eternally 25 for a handful of years, disappear for fifteen and return in their late 60s. Die within a decade.

Politicians: Either 'young up-and-comers' at 45 or perpetually 68, and NEVER. FUCKING. DIE.

--DiB
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Scale [Nov. 15th, 2016|11:09 pm]
PolarisDiB
I had to spend some time thinking and now my thoughts are starting to coalesce. I'm not great on the public face of activism. Ever since I went to an Iraq War protest and found pro-marijuana legalization and other issues signs, I didn't like going for the mixed messaging. Ever since I learned people can't tell the difference between the Iraq and Afghanistan wars, I've stopped talking international conflicts. Once I took basically an entire degree in media studies, I learned there's no talking to the 'I don't trust The Mainstream Media" idiots, and after I had a leftist tell me he'd gladly execute me on the street once The Revolution comes (because I said I don't mind capitalism, and so when he says he'd like to shoot capitalists did he mean me?), I found out that I have as hard a time even looking at their bullshit as I've always had the white nationalists on the right.

In the meantime, my career and my lifestyle has taken me to over 14 non-American countries and all over the continental US, and even over the time I've had this LiveJournal (guys: literally half my life) I've gone from I'm just trying to play devil's advocate and I just like practicing debate to shutting my mouth and operating under the three guiding principles:

> Where your goals and mine match, I will help you achieve your goal.

> Where your goals and mine don't match, I will pursue mine and leave you to yours, but I will not try to block yours.

> I'm friends with everybody.

And yes, the occasional politics has slipped out. Always. But my life had been, at least up until a week ago, a gradually developing practice of keeping my mouth shut and doing all my activist work in the background.

Well, that's not gonna work for me anymore, because our country has elected a fascist in control of a dominionist government. All three branches are controlled by one party, once the President-Elect puts in his specially selected Supreme Court justice. And there's a hell of a lot of other things I have to say about all that, including the fact that that the real future question mark here is how much internecine fighting between the cognitively dissonant GOP happens, but otherwise my main commitment to basically anything right now is preventing and reducing the violence and civil rights abuses and rollbacks from white nationalists against minorities.

I have a whole 'The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly' post to make at some later date that I probably won't make here, because this LiveJournal is no longer going to voice my political opinions. I'm moving somewhere else and under a new pseudonym and I'm not telling you where, because of what I already said: I'm not good at the public face of this. I'm a background processor. I try to influence things in my own arena behind the scenes while the ideologues squabble on stage about who is the True Pure Enough.

I'm just working on plans to scale it up, and above all am focusing my energies on creating a sort of infrastructure for modern civil rights activism. This will, among other things, require some reading and research, as well as collating. But anyway it's my new project, and something I'm tossing aside a lot of other intellectual endeavors to do.

Because I guess I can say my stupidest assumption, and one of my own ignorances that many people like me practiced, was believing that progress was on autopilot as the old guard died. This is clearly not the case. Breitbart writers and readers won't just 'die off', of old age or anything. The Tea Party took over control of all branches of the United States federal government in only six years. So to get it back, civil rights activists have to be even more active.

--PolarisDiB
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Perspective [Nov. 8th, 2016|10:29 am]
PolarisDiB
This is what I posted to Facebook on Nov. 7th, 2012, courtesy of the Memories app:

"I actually enjoyed myself this election. I did get caught up on some of the partisan debates and stress but I'm still riding high on living in the Land Of Do As You Please after living in an actual theocratic monarchy for two years, and for the most part I didn't think the federal campaigns were nearly as compelling or significant as what has been done on the state level this time around. I'll be interested to see what happens in 2014 and 2016."

Certain events this year have made me wonder if being abroad would give me that same "Dafuq are 'Mericans complainin' about?" feeling I had before.... ...

--DiB
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Pretty much the next four years, I guess. [Oct. 28th, 2016|03:57 pm]
PolarisDiB
Some government bureaucrat: "Hey, I just discovered an email from Hillary Clinton she sent in, like, 2006. I had asked her for her frittata recipe."

Her GOP friend: "NEW EMAILS?! INFORM COMEY!"

Comey: "Yeah fine, I'll file this e-mail in the cabinet. At this point it's not even a drawer, we just have a fucking closet stuffed with transcripts. I have to inform Congress that I'm doing the filing, because they've set a motion sensor on that closet to make sure to sharpen the knives every fucking time I merely bump the door."

Congress: "Can we indict her? No we can't indict her. What can we do with this information? I know, we'll just tell the alt-right press that the investigation is reopened. They'll say we can indict her, which is not true, but it'll get the message we want out."

Alt-right media: "HOLY SHIT HILLARY'S GONNA GET DONE JAILED HARDCORE OOOO RIGHT IN THE ASS LIKE I DREAM ERRY NIGHT NUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH. WHAT DOES FRITTATA MEAN? RUNNING ISIS TO THE POLLS TO TAKE AWAY OUR GUNS? SOUNDS LIKE SOME SORT OF WOP THING. SHE MUST BE IN WITH THE MAFIA."

Mainstream media: "Looks like Hillary's emails are going to be investigated again. I have to report this because if I don't, people get really, really angry at me for not acting like this is a big deal. So, therefore, in conclusion, vis a vis, this is a big deal. Since we can't really find anybody who truly cares beyond alt-right JAQers, let's just quote them for our fucking article."

My Facebook feed: "SEE IF WE DIDN'T HAVE SUCH AN UNTRUSTWORTHY FUCKING CANDIDATE OUR PROGRESSIVE PARADISE WOULD BE REALIZED WITH KITTENS AND UNICORNS!"

The next day FBI: "Clinton not indicted, but we can't give you the frittata recipe because it turns out to have come from a family-owned restaurant that copyrighted it in 1972."

Congress: "INVESTIGATE IF WE CAN INDICT CLINTON FOR INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY THEFT!"

Mainstream Media: "*Sigh*. How 'bout, 'Did Clinton's recipe sharing violate intellectual property laws?' Yeah, that, that'll, that headline'll .... just don't spend more than five minutes working on this, okay?"

Alt-Right Media: "CLINTON BEING INVESTIGATED FOR INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY THEFT! ALSO SHE HATES SMALL BUSINESSES! AND WOPS! SHE HATES THOSE GABO BASTARDS!"

Clinton: "Excuse me, I love Italians!"

Alt-Right Media: "CLINTON HINTS AT MAFIA CONNECTIONS IN APOLOGY FOR SMALL BUSINESS SHAKE-UP!"

Left-wing advocacy humor nightly show: "And here's Clinton, missing the fucking point. Again. But memba Trump?"

My FB feed: "I can't believe the pain my very good Italian-American friends are going through with this issue. Why can't we just bridge the painful divisions in our country? I say we start by shutting down capitalism and deleting all Internet histories of anybody who ever used a word that triggers me."

Comey: "No, we can't indict Clinton for stealing a frittata recipe. No reasonable prosecutor would bother."

Congress: "Can we get an unreasonable prosecutor then?"

Comey: "...No."

Congress: "Copy that, we'll just keep our eye out for the next bullshit scandal. We have literally nothing but time and money, being that we don't do the whole writing legislation and trying to solve problems thing anymore."

Wikileaks: "I promise more is coming! I'm so lonely. I've been in this embassy for years. Please fund us?"

ALT-RIGHT: "CONGRESS COMEY AND CLINTON THREE SIDES OF THE ILLUMINATI TRIANGLE THOSE FUCKING CORRUPT PIECES OF SHIT!"

My FB feed: "WHAT, THIS DIDN'T HURT CLINTON EITHER? Such bullshit. When can we take the entire government down and rebuild it into GMO-free organic vertical farm that hosts daily readings of anarcho-syndalistic feminist texts? Seriously it's like nobody even tries to imagine great things anymore."

Mainstream Media: "SO GUYS WHO'S GONNA RUN FOR 2020!!!"

--PolarisDiB
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The Exact Sort of LiveJournal Post I Would Have Made 10 Years Ago [Oct. 9th, 2016|04:13 pm]
PolarisDiB
Man, I love Crüxshadow's music, but their music videos are absolute shit quality and also sell every bad cliché about goths you can come up with.

--DiB

PS: I hope the next < 30 days of the election is just increasingly shrill Republicans arguing with each other.
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But I'm confused: [Oct. 8th, 2016|03:01 pm]
PolarisDiB
Was Donald Trump's pussy grabbing of binders full of women not a legitimate rape?

Otherwise I can't imagine why Republicans are shocked by this clearly unprecedented situation.

--DiB
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Facing Another [Sep. 25th, 2016|11:54 pm]
PolarisDiB
I just watched The Face of Another by Hiroshi Teshigahara, written by Kobo Abe. It's a movie about plastic surgery, like Eyes Without a Face and Face / Off and Under the Skin, and within Japanese cinema, Onibaba. Like those other movies, it's a horror / science fiction, about how fluid identity runs the risk of dehumanization and the swapping of faces contains an existential threat that runs even as deep as sanity and morality.

I have an idea for a different sort of movie based on the work of Sir Harold Gilles, the father of modern plastic surgery, who believed that plastic surgery was a necessary method of medical attention -- that the existential risk of identity lay in making the external body reflect the internal beauty of a person as they believed it to be.

It's interesting to think that plastic surgery is one of modern society's forms of acceptable bigotry. Whereas transgenderism is chipping away at one element of that, the idea of an actress defending her face against age or even an invalid repairing her face against trauma is still, to a gut instinct, considered 'superficial.'

--PolarisDiB
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(no subject) [Sep. 15th, 2016|10:00 pm]
PolarisDiB
As I watch the car cross the intersection I'm confused as to how wonderful the moment is.

I thought to cross but stopped myself, my general level re: inebriation such that it's within realm of possibility vis a vis some article in the newspaper about the drunken man wandered into traffic and then hit by a vehicle kaput, bloddy smeer on the ground or something,

but like my manager said that ages ago in the foreign country where I almost hit a head-on and then didn't, and exhilaration on high and yabbering and my manager he said, "Dude, iit didn't happen so stop worrying about it." Actually he was being a dick but behind the sentiment was something real. It didn't happen.

As now. It didn't happen. I'm really unsure over whether I chose not to cross the street or chose to cross the street but kept myself back out of self-preservation. I'm at exactly that level: did I almost wander unaware into the line of traffic and thus die out of a sense of nonsense, or did I think to end it on a high note and commit suicide by car but some unaware ego held me back? It could go either way. What's lost to the possibilities of time and to my own limited self-awareness with regard to my brain versus my consciousness is what was conscious and what was not. What's real in either case is that I'm still here right now. I survived, either despite myself or because of myself. Either way it doesn't matter in terms of history. Either way it matters in terms of memory. That's the distinction right there.

I mean, here I am at the keyhole and I'm trying to put the apartment key in the building lock. And I'm inside and here I am trying to put the building key in the apartment lock. Obviously I'm not all here. But am I not all here because of the chemical alcohol turning ethanol in my gibbets, or am I not all here like I'm not all here after a long day of work fatigue you try to stick a key in hole and it doesn't go and for that moment you feel that thrush of rush of what if you're locked out? and then you switch keys and it works and you laughsigh to yourself because come on man, seriously.

That's the game of consciousness doubled down exponential under the 1.8 beers, 2.3, maybe a three and a third. A moment past a moment where clearly fundamentally your reactions are delayed, DWI, DUI, the sort of stuff gives you a breathalizer if caught while driving, but only caught while driving, because weirdly otherwise and this is not an excuse but to be seriously on the other hand otherwise, but clearly your self awareness of the delay makes you more careful and that there is why you're a better driver or something. You never, ever believe it from a person who tells it to you. You always believe it when you tell it.

What's the difference between you when you know it and you when you know you're lying? Drunkenness. You know it either way. But what's the difference between someone telling you they're okay and lying to you that they're okay? You can't ever really tell. And the difference between you knowing you're okay and you lying that you're okay is the same with your ability to tell the difference between if you know in yourself you're okay and you're lying to yourself that you're okay. It's the doubt, right? If you doubt that you're okay, you're okay. If you don't doubt, you're not okay. But if you don't doubt, you can't doubt, and it's easier to convince yourself you're okay.

Which is all to say when you're walking around the park by yourself late one night and even think about how you'll tell the story to someone else, "to sober up", is the term you're thinking, "to sober up", that comes with that self-doubt regarding alcohol-to-ethanol in the gullet transmission, does the exercise help or hurt? Like, are you processing faster or is your body holding out to the moment when more energy and resources can be used against this legal poison in the system that can be worked out, as long as motherfucker stops using said resources for the contractconstrictstretchcontractconstrict of the legamens ligaments? Whatever the hell happens down there, pulley system of musclenerve twisted meatstrings. Takes energy, you know that. Wears you out, you know that. But burns the alcoethanol, low boiling evaporation point? Or system overdrive?

It doesn't matter, you're alive now. You smell the ditchweed from the Puerto Rican neighbors as you backseat drive your own inebriated skull over the whole key versus lock situation.

But did you almost wander in front of that car, or did you merely consider it?

--PolarisDiB
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Rewording of my last post [Aug. 16th, 2016|12:18 am]
PolarisDiB
1) The difference between 'decadence' and 'wealth' in Western historian lingo is whether or not the Republic collapsed shortly afterward.

2) The Western right defines 'decadence' as decay of cultural and civic institutions, the Western left defines it as unsustainable and inequal consumption of resources.

3) The Republic collapses, but the 'decadence' doesn't. It just flees to other societies and advances them instead.

--DiB
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